THat one feeling

Do you know that feeling

the feeling of not fitting

Even when you have the passion

the want, need to fit.

You just don't.

You try everything to fit, make

new friends, new enemy's, new hobby's

all in the hope that eventually

You will fit in that one place

that place where u feel at home

that place where you know you are loved

and when everything is going down hill

you can go to that place and rest.

But not everyone has that place

I don't seem to

I have tried most of my life to find

that place

i have tried

But to no avail

Where is it?

How do i get there?

When?

This world

We live in a world with No dignity

A world with a lack of pride

A world with no conscious

A would where you have to try

to show people who you are by

doing the things they want you

to do

Why do we put up with this?

Why should we live in constant

fear that one day our closest friends turn on us

Why do we have to watch them

to make sure they keep a secret

Why do people hate each other without

knowing why

Why i ask

IT shows through the people who have the power over us

I am not talking about GOD or your close friends

from church or even your pastor

I am talking about the people who dictate us

through The law of the land

The people who through democracy, Dictate us with

laws that they come up with not

knowing what these laws really cause

With tv shows that they allow

With the lies upon lies that they tell the people

The lies that they tell u and me

This corrupt way of living is

showing people that lying is ok

its is telling our children that

no one can be trusted

So why

Can they not see that if we can not trust our leaders

then there soon will not be a government

Soon there will not be a U.s. or a U.k.

or anyone united nation

All because of the fear that someone close to you will

turn on you

So ask yourself

Who do honestly trust

In my life

Lately life has been rough for me

I have not been doing much with my life

and so i have the feeling that my life is taking revenge by fucking me over

well at least that is the way i feel

I try to look up and i see the things i want

but they become illusions of the things that actually happen

I try

I really do

but it always comes back on me

and the harder i try, the worse things get

so what should i do

should i give up

No i don't think i should

but i don't know how my much longer i can take this shit

idk

maybe it will get better