I don't know

Schools over, and it seems as though things have ended. But they haven't, they never do. Its a never ending cycle of hell. My head races and my mind crys out for something to happen, anything to take me from this never ending spin. Im done with regular life. I need something to do, i want to just feel as though im not just another joe from nowhere. i need to make something of myself. I know who i need for that, its hard to get to you. it seems like your not listening. If u are then thank your but i could use some help dealing with these lack of changes.

I just don't know.

Why does it feel like everything is ending.. i mean i know school is over but that does not mean everything else has to be over. all of the fun stuff that happens in high school can still happen in college. but i just feel like everyone is given up. like there is no hope for our generations future.

its not the end of the world but our generation could be the beginning. Jest remember to keep those close to u close and to make sure u show them the appreciation of being a sister or a brother or a pastor or a friend. u know?

WHen people escape

I know that there is a time when your friends move.. when they leave

but i dont know if i can handle them leaving. i can see my life without my friends

Knowing that i am graduating in 3 weeks is hard enough.. then there is your best friends

moving away from you to start wonderful lives.. to make new friends and to have new favorite

memories.. but what about me

what do i do

sit and wait for them to come back.

its hard to make new friends

i know i will but they wont be the same.

they wont be the friends i spent countless hours talking on the phone about high school drama.

those friends that u talked about all your crushes with

those friends

they will be gone.. not for good but gone

and i know some of them will stay in touch

or even come back

but they change.

they may not be the same people who left you.

those friends. tho ones who escaped.

THat one feeling

Do you know that feeling

the feeling of not fitting

Even when you have the passion

the want, need to fit.

You just don't.

You try everything to fit, make

new friends, new enemy's, new hobby's

all in the hope that eventually

You will fit in that one place

that place where u feel at home

that place where you know you are loved

and when everything is going down hill

you can go to that place and rest.

But not everyone has that place

I don't seem to

I have tried most of my life to find

that place

i have tried

But to no avail

Where is it?

How do i get there?

When?

This world

We live in a world with No dignity

A world with a lack of pride

A world with no conscious

A would where you have to try

to show people who you are by

doing the things they want you

to do

Why do we put up with this?

Why should we live in constant

fear that one day our closest friends turn on us

Why do we have to watch them

to make sure they keep a secret

Why do people hate each other without

knowing why

Why i ask

IT shows through the people who have the power over us

I am not talking about GOD or your close friends

from church or even your pastor

I am talking about the people who dictate us

through The law of the land

The people who through democracy, Dictate us with

laws that they come up with not

knowing what these laws really cause

With tv shows that they allow

With the lies upon lies that they tell the people

The lies that they tell u and me

This corrupt way of living is

showing people that lying is ok

its is telling our children that

no one can be trusted

So why

Can they not see that if we can not trust our leaders

then there soon will not be a government

Soon there will not be a U.s. or a U.k.

or anyone united nation

All because of the fear that someone close to you will

turn on you

So ask yourself

Who do honestly trust

In my life

Lately life has been rough for me

I have not been doing much with my life

and so i have the feeling that my life is taking revenge by fucking me over

well at least that is the way i feel

I try to look up and i see the things i want

but they become illusions of the things that actually happen

I try

I really do

but it always comes back on me

and the harder i try, the worse things get

so what should i do

should i give up

No i don't think i should

but i don't know how my much longer i can take this shit

idk

maybe it will get better

If we do Nothing we are Nothing

The famous Memo that a good friend of mine told me

If we do nothing we are nothing

though if we do allot that doesn't exactly mean we are allot

I think the meaning of this sentence is that if we are going to do something make it worth the time to actually accomplish